2017 was hard. I’m pretty sure someone stuffed me into a washing machine, turned it on and left it running, at least that’s what it felt like. As I bet you can figure out this did not help my depression at all. Looking on the bright side isn’t easy for me but it’s 2018 and there is more than enough negativity in the world that I can’t change so I will do what I can and work on myself. New Year’s resolutions are often these big ideas that you set that the best of intentions and then get overwhelmed by. I’m going to try something different.
At the beginning of each week, I will post about something I’m looking forward to in the coming week, even if it’s something as small as a change in the weather. I am doing this for many reasons. I am determined to write here more consistently. I also believe that you attract the things that you project out into the world and lately all I have been projecting is negativity and sadness so of course, that’s what I’m getting. Things I’m looking forward to this week include more reading. I currently have two historical fiction novels by Margaret George one about Mary Queen of Scots and the other about Elizabeth I sitting on top of the TV in my bedroom.I am about halfway through the Mary book and haven’t even started on Elizabeth yet. I am the kind of person who is more than happy to pay overdue fines if it means I finish what I check out. They are both very overdue.
Continuing on the subject of positive things that have happened. I received notification that the application I submitted to have my school loans forgiven because of my disability was approved. I am 32 and debt-free. Also, Oz finished paying the back pay owed on his child support so now we can save for things we want, including eventually moving back to Ohio.
In just a little short of three weeks, we bring home my German Shepherd puppy! It’s a girl and we are tentatively naming her Pixie unless her personality really suggests something different. My family grew up with German Shepherd crosses and we knew several people with them like this is my first all Shepherd puppy, she will definitely be an experience.
I am really hoping this plan to consciously notice positive things every week helps me lighten up as I have been a glass half empty type of person for a very long time. I hope everyone’s 2018 is better than 2017. I hope you have just enough rain to appreciate the sunshine (and if you live in California I really hope wildfires will take a break this year) and twice as many hugs as you expect.